God's Plan

I firmly believe in paying dues. I believe that nothing worth wanting in life comes easy. I watch people try to get over all the time. Always taking the easy way out. Trying to cut corners. I look back on my life and how after my father died I didn't want to go back to work. I am so glad now that I did. I also am glad that I am home NOW. At this pivotal time in my son's life. I'm not a perfect mother, but I am a good one. I was watching a movie last night with my son.  "Safe Haven" by Nicholas Sparks. Of COURSE I read the book. I knew what was going to happen. David kept pausing it to ask me what was going to happen. I kept telling him to watch it and find out. Sure I could of let him know the major plot twist ahead of time, but not knowing he was thoroughly entertained and loved the ending. Even though he is growing up we spend time together and he is SO his mother's CHILD.

Garth Brooks has a classic song " The Dance" which I love. I have loved it for years and as I mature it's significance becomes even more acute to me. The most profound lyrics are "life is better left to chance, I could of missed the pain, but would of had to miss the dance". Losing my hearing was devastating. I really was upset with God. I couldn't believe it. Mostly because of the time it happened. I had JUST got this great promotion. Moved out on my own. I reiterate, I couldn't believe it. I LOVED talking on the phone. All my life. Please-everyone knows I am so NOSY. Fast forward fourteen years later. I NOW know this was a part of God's greater plan for my life. God has sent me resources, treasures from heaven. He has instilled in me a drive, a purpose to help people.

He has also given me the time and space to work on me. He has humbled me so that I can re-emerge stronger and victorious. To cast away the people, places and things that no longer serve me. Most importantly to be thankful for what I presently have. The life I live, the life we each live is guided by the Creator. This I know like my name. So when I am looking for answers to my questions I need look no further than to God. He has already placed the answers inside of me, next to the song that is inside of my soul. It is all apart of His Divine Plan. When in doubt, let go, give it to God and leave it with Him.